Analyse this

13 Jun

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I sometimes wish my psyche was a bit more… creative. I’d be a really crap murder suspect / poker player. I’m the Ladybird Easy Read of open books. How can I train my id/ego to grow up a bit?

In 10 days time our first baby is due and needless to say I’m feeling a little anxious about it. I don’t really need to be battered around the head with this fact by my own subconscious but it’s insisting on the most textbook of manifestations.

Take last night – an evening masterclass of classic physical stress signs (pounding heart, restless legs etc) followed by a disturbingly vivid dream about swimming in an enormous ship graveyard, surrounded by giant, creaking rotting boat carcasses and terrified of both what was both above and beneath me. Even the sky was predictably stormy.

The reason for my imaginary scary swim – I had come on holiday, with my mother, and she had suggested it before promptly disappearing and leaving me to do the “tour” on my own.

I woke up at 5am in the strangest position, sweating and crouched like a frog with the baby practicing a spot of karate against the left hand side of my ribcage.

There’s really no need to page Dr Freud about this one is there?

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2 Responses to “Analyse this”

  1. almost witty June 14, 2011 at 3:57 pm #

    During our waiting phase, we were advised to do things to take our minds off the impending birth. Like playing video games or going to the cinema, or something. Whatever you normally do to relax…

    Good luck!

    • zskdorset June 14, 2011 at 6:31 pm #

      Unfortunately pretty much everything I usually do to relax is not pregnancy friendly 😉

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